Hi babe. It’s our anniversary today. Don’t you remember? :( here I am counting days alone.. So if ever you’ll come back I do have the track of the days that we should be together and celebrating together… I miss you so much.. And I love you everyday..

I’ll be wearing our wedding ring one day :)

There’s a rainbow always after the rain.. Ika nga nila. And yes it’s true. Hindi ka palaging malungkot. Hindi ka palaging may problema. If you’ve chosen to be sad.. Wala kang karapatan magreklamo. Again it’s a matter of choice :) remembering back then, iniisip ko bakit ganito yung nangyari sakin. Sinagot ako ng realidad. Iniwan ka dahil mali na yung aspeto mo sa love. Be alone be sad be the worst you can be.. Tipong wala na ni isang gustong makasama ka. Miski anino mo gusto ka ng iwan.. So in the darkest of your hours love will find its way back to you.. It will caress you kiss you and hug you tight.. Feels like it will no longer be out of your way anymore. Andito na ko uli mahal.. Naging mali kasi ang pananaw mo sa pagmamahal.. Naging makasarili ka.. Hindi mo naisip na dalawa kayong may nararamdaman. Hindi mo pag mamay ari ang mundo nya.. Mali ka dun.. At ngayon bumalik ako sayo dahil handa ka na.. Nag grow ka na. Kaya mo na. Alam mo na kung pano magmahal uli’ :) This time it’s for real. For long lasting love.. Baka till death do us part na.. Ingatan mo lang.. At wag pabayaan uli. Just keep in mind ‘you don’t want to screw it all again.. You want it to be the last, kapag nagkatampuhan kayo, mag isip ka. Don’t let your emotion wins. Watch your word. Give him space. He will come back to your arms. Because in the first place.. Ikaw pa din ang mahal nya. Yung kaibigan nya.

My love.. Kapag dumating sa oras na may problema ako.. Wag mo kong isugarcoat. Tell me if im wrong.. Tell me what Im supposed to do. Makikinig ako kahit matigas ang ulo ko. Dahil in the end of the night.. Dun pa lang ako nag iisip ng tama sa lahat ng sinabi mo buong araw.. My love, wag kang mapagod skn.. Madami akong rants and issue sa buhay instead alisin mo ang insecurities ko.. In that way.. Magiging maayos ako. Wag mo kong talikuran kapag galit ako.. Yakapin mo lang ako.. Kusa akong natigil. Madali akong sumuko, pero pag sinabi mong kaya ko. Naniniwala akong kaya ko nga. Wala akong tiwala sa sarili ko, pero sana ikaw meron. My love.. Matagal pa tayong magkikita. But in case mahanap mo na ko. Sana mabasa mo to at mag comment ng, Hi mahal. I wonder kung gano kadaming sugat meron ka habang ginagawa to, pero enough said baby. Im here now. Let me nurse your wounds. :) Siguro ngayon busy ka pa sa mga kausap mo. Okaya baka may gf ka pa ngayon. Okay lang.. Maghihintay ako.. Sa ngayon.. Nagttravel ako kasama ang mga kaibigan ko.. Nagpapakasaya ako at binubuo ang sarili ko para sayo :) so when the time comes.. Yung salitang I love you may meaning na. At para sakin na :)

Love, erika :)

I may look tough on the outside, hard headed and spoiled. But the moment I saw mama sad when papa left us for another two years in SA, I just can’t help it but to be sadder. Kanina sa work, nakikinig lang ako sa kantang gusto ko. Di ko namalayang may natulo na pala hindi ko alam kung dahil sa nararamdaman ko oh sa pag alis ng papa ko. I know, Di ako nagsasalita. Di ako nakikipag kwentuhan. I just don’t know why. Masakit sakin yung alam nyo na pa 😂 di ko kayang magpatawad pero gusto kong magpatawad. Gustong gusto. Pagkauwi ko, wala ka. Kita kong tahimik na uli ang bahay. Sorry I wasn’t able to be your baby girl. I tried. But I can’t. Hindi ako malambing, hindi ako pala kwento. I always want to keep everything for myself. I don’t know what I really want. I want to travel but want to save money at the same time. I want to leave home but I don’t want to be that far. I want to be independent, but I know I can’t. I will always miss your walang humpay na sermon. I just love you both. Yes. I am sorry.

Today. As I freed my self, Im letting you to love someone else now. Im going to pick up the pieces that has been tore into bits when Im totally in-love with you. Where to start? I don’t know. All I know now is, I’ve been hurt for too much, and that I can’t even recall what happiness feels like.

Today is my birthday my love, I know you knew. But you never greet nor Hi. Deep down in me Im slowly dying. Im waiting. I still have 3 more hours. Maybe you’ll greet me before 12. I know. I believe. My love :(

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My days are going fast, but also painfully slow at the same time. I still miss you and love you so much.. I hope you are healing okay.. I will always be here and you’ll always have a reserved seat in my heart

I feel you :(

Many can’t see you the way My eyes do. Kahit malabo talaga mata ko 😂 Happy birthday bambol!